Disclaimer: Sorry for the swearing. I was mad. And there aren't any other words that fit what I mean.
I am so mad right now.
I feel like everything is fucking my fault in this family and I'm sick of it. Honestly, I'm just sick of my family. I am SOOOO ready to just be out of this stupid little town in the god damned suburbs and be at college in the city. I hate it. I'm always the one that gets made fun of, teased, the butt of every frickin' joke, and when I tried to retaliate I get yelled at. Really? It's like everyone else's feelings are considered except my own. Who cares if my feelings are hurt? It's just fun to make fun of me!!
And everything we do is planned around weather or not I do my chores well enough. I want to hang out with Yearin who's visiting from college? I have to clean my room otherwise I can't. The entire family wants to decorate for christmas? Ok, but Faith has to sweep first. So we can't decorate for christmas because I didn't sweep or clean the fucking bathroom.
UGH!!! I am so fucking sick of my family!!! I'll just go back to russia next summer, because Lena is obviously the perfect daughter, and I'm not good enough. My parents would obviously have Lena as their daughter instead of me.
Yea, dad actually said I could go to Russia instead of Lena because Lena's mom did such a good job of raising her. And it was all because I want my ears pierced again and Lena doesn't like piercings.
Speaking of which, Why the HELL did Miley Cyrus get her nose pierced?